a little help

As many of you already know, my life got turned upside-down in 2021 and it wasn’t really even about the pandemic, though that didn’t help matters. I am not sorry that I initiated the first major change because the alternative was probably stroking out, the stress was so bad. But one thing led to another, including a bout of homelessness in 2023, and now I’m in NorCal looking at the real possibility of homelessness again, or at least a possibly intolerable situation it will be impossible to escape from. I’m not sure, and the lack of sureness is maddening.

I need a little more time to figure things out. If I could just stay in place for another six months at least, that would go a long way.

As of Independence Day (2025), I have set up a GoFundMe. This is for covering my half-utilities for my housemate for the next half-year as well as ensure I stay fed that whole time. I can feed myself on about fifty a week, so it’s $120 for half utilities and $200 for food per month. I already looked into SNAP and they want me to have a job before they’ll help, and if I had a job then I wouldn’t need their help. I eat THAT cheaply. So anyway, I rounded up the total, and this is what I came up with:

My GoFundMe

Yes, I’m aware they also fundraise for some hinky shit, but consider me your GFM dollar better spent. You can also see my sob story better spelled out there. Have a look.

If you don’t trust that your dollar will actually go to food — laughable prospect; my one drug dependency is caffeine and I’ve already got that covered — then I have an Amazon wishlist where you can help me obtain some protein and fat, at least. That’s here:

Amazon wishlist

I am trying to take more steps to maybe be self-employed but it’s been really hard to focus, and it finally just occurred to me that a lot of it is worry and a corresponding strong desire for escapism. I need at least some temporary stability so I can clear my head. Because I had decent income with the odd job I had for several months (December to early May), but because I was dealing with unstable lunatics, I was also worried that entire time. So I lost a lot of ground. This is me trying to take it back.

If anyone helps, thank you. If you can’t help but want to, a share would be appreciated too.